Thursday, 15th March 2012
The day I turn 22.
Sebenarnya pengen stay 21 for a longer time. Dari dulu pengen banget ngerasain umur 21. Dan emang bener 21 is the best!! Sayangnya, karena terlalu menikmati jadinya terasa terlalu cepat berlalu. I used to wish I could be forever 21. Yes, like the name of one of my favorite stores.
This is how the age of 22 welcomed me in:
sekitar jam setengah 1 - a surprise from some of my good friends from choir! Bener2 tak terduga, meskipun hadiahnya udah terduga. Hahaha. A framed photo collage yang udah jadi tradisi. But I love it so much!! Thank youuu :*
sekitar jam setengah 10 - a surprise from my girls “La Ma Prens” haha. Kejutan yang agak heboh: blind-folded dan diceburin ke kolam renang…2 kali, trus dikasih kue yg bentuknya kayak boobies! Hahaha gilak! After changing and touch-up-ing we went to have lunch….and there was another surprise in the form of a beautiful cheesecake!! I was really touched, ladies. Love you all :*
Malamnya - a fun and romantic dinner with my awesome man at Marche—restoran baru bernuansa pasar tradisional Swiss yg okeeeeee & enaaaakk banget!! A new favorite, for sure! *iklan*
On the way back home, after dinner, we were driving past a shopping centre building….aku ngeliat ke gedung itu, lampu2 di semua lantainya udah mati, kecuali di lantai Forever21. Belum ada sedetik aku liatin, tiba2 lampunya mati.
I was telling my man about the suddenly-turned-off lights, and I just realized something. It was so symbolic! It was like saying that the idea of me being “forever 21” is no more. I’m 21 no more. Goodbye 21. Thank you for being such an amazingly adventurous age :*
I’m 22!
I used to cry myself to sleep at night
But that was all before he came
I thought love had to hurt to turn out right
But now he’s here
It’s not the same, it’s not the same
He fills me up
He gives me love
More love than I’ve ever seen
He’s all I’ve got,
He’s all I’ve got in this world
But he’s all the man that I need
And in the morning when I kiss his eyes
He takes me down and rocks me slow
And in the evening when the moon is high
He holds me close and won’t let go
He won’t let go
—A great song by Whitney Houston to be dedicated to Mr. Silly—
DAMN RIGHT! :D :D
“Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.”—“So what?”—“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”—“What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.”—“Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do you want? What do you want?” —The Notebook (2004)
true ♥ :)
This is dedicated for my most beloved Mr. Silly, who’s having his 23rd birthday today! Woohoo!! :)
It’s a shame I can’t be with him to celebrate his birthday together. But despite the distance, I hope he can feel truly joyful and grateful today.
Happy Birthday once again, honey. I love you beyond measure and thank you for always trying to make me smile everyday :D
love her!!
She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never thought the grace of God go high
Ga bisa disangkal, seringkali setiap orang merasakan momen dimana mereka gak ngerti harus kemana atau harus berbuat apa. Rasanya semua kekuatan dan kemampuan udah dikerahkan, tapi ternyata di ujung jalan gak ada apa-apa. Gelap. Bukannya mendapat kepuasan, malah merasa tersesat. Hilang arah.
Semua kepercayaan diri yang awalnya kita punya, seketika hilang, dan rasanya seperti berjalan tanpa punya pegangan apa-apa lagi.
Hanya kemurahan Tuhan yang dapat menolong.
(I found heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria)
I’ve been alone when I’m surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud?
But I still go home knowing that I’ve got you
There’s only us when the lights go down
This one really stabs me right in the heart. Setiap hari dikelilingi teman-teman, bagi-bagi gosip/fakta, ketawa-ketawa… tp jauh di dalam hati tetap terasa kesepian. Semua hiruk pikuk orang-orang disekeliling cuma mengena sampai di permukaan aja. Entah kenapa di dasar hati, yang lebih mendalam, gak terdengar suara apa-apa. Sepi. Malah seringkali rasanya aku cuma duduk di kursi penonton, menyaksikan orang-orang di sekelilingku, tanpa merasa seperti aku bagian dari mereka. Outsider. Alienated.
Saat pulang di malam hari, masuk ke kamar… hanya ada aku dan Tuhan. Satu-satunya yang mau meluangkan waktu untuk mendengarkan dan berusaha memahami.
Terkadang, kalau aku beruntung, Dia mengirimkan ‘kamu’ sebagai perwakilannya supaya aku bisa merasakan kehangatan pelukanNya melalui pelukanmu dan mencurahkan semua air mata frustasi ke pundakNya melalui pundakmu.
(You are my heaven on earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside
Singing Ave Maria)
Oh LORD…the only true satisfaction in life is in You. In the midst of all the disappointments, rejections, loneliness, confusions and tears… I still thank You, for standing right beside me, waiting for me with Your open arms, ready to welcome me in, warm my cold heart and wipe my tears.
Thank you for blessing me with people who genuinely love me and choose to love both my weaknesses and strengths everyday.
I just wish they weren’t so far away from me…
